Meghan McCainstill feels like she’s living in an “awful parallel universe” 84 days after her father Sen. John McCain’s death.
The 34-year-old shared a photo of thewar heroandlongtime politiciancooking on her Instagram, Sunday, and reminisced about weekends spent with her father.
Continued Meghan, “I want to tell you about everything and get your opinion on everything – just like we used to do. I don’t know how you go from talking to someone seven times a day to never. It is still so indescribably surreal to go through the motions of life without sharing all of it with you – like some awful parallel universe I fell into.”
“The pain of missing you and the grief that comes with it continues to be sharp and primal,” she wrote. “Some waves are more intense than others but they come every day relentlessly. Stay with me. Stay with me. Stay with me.”
Meghan said that she continued to “fight on” because that’s what her father would have “demanded” of her. She noted that he made her “so tough and so strong.”
Addressing “anyone else in my place or those who are not,” Meghan said, “I wish we wouldn’t put time limits or rules on grief, we all do it differently in different ways.”
“I shared my father on social media while he was here (and he loved it) and I choose to continue sharing him now that he is not. There’s always the unfollow button if recognizing the impact of death and loss makes anyone uncomfortable.”
Meghan McCain/Instagram
“The America of John McCain has no need to be great again because America was always great,” she said, referencing the campaign slogan of PresidentDonald Trump, whowas not in attendance.
On Sunday, she also shared a photo of John to her Instagram story, writing, “I miss you so much.”
Meghan has also previouslybeen candid about her griefonInstagram.
“I wake up every morning still instinctually trying and reaching to call you on the phone. I miss you so much Dad it physically hurts my heart. I miss your laugh, your voice, your dark sense of humor, the way you always made me feel safe in a world that seems to have lost its way,” she wrote earlier this year.
source: people.com
