In her new audiobook “But First, God,” Julie Chen Moonves opens up about her lower facelift.Photo:Courtesy of Julie Chen Moonves

Courtesy of Julie Chen Moonves
Julie Chen Moonveshas revealed her 2018 departure fromThe Talkis what prompted her decision to “go under the knife” for a cosmetic refresh.
In her new audio memoirBut First, God, Chen Moonves, 53, claimed her exit from theCBSdaytime show in September 2018 after eight years of moderating the panel series spurred her decision to get a “lower facelift,” partly because she was “expected to look not drastically different” from how she appeared on screens.
“When you work in front of the television and you are a woman, you are expected to look — I’m just gonna say it: young," Chen Moonves said in the audiobook.“You’re expected to be pleasing to the eye and society, especially Hollywood is not kind on aging women.”
“And I knew part of my bread and butter being in front of the camera was to maintain how I looked, stay out of the sun, put on sunblock and yes, if I have to, go under the knife,” she continued.
Julie Chen Moonves with her former “The Talk” co-hosts, from left: Sheryl Underwood, Sara Gilbert, Sharon Osbourne and Eve.Sonja Flemming/CBS via Getty

Sonja Flemming/CBS via Getty
The CBS personality said following herdeparture fromThe Talkat age 48, cosmetic surgery felt like “a form of healing” and was a way to prove “these meanies can’t get me down.”
Chen Moonves, who talks about her mini facelift in her new audio memoir “But First, God,” has hosted “Big Brother” since its debut in 2000.Courtesy of Julie Chen Moonves

Chen Moonves' 2018 departure fromThe Talkcame days after her husbandLes Moonvesleft his position as chairman and CEO of CBS, amidallegations of sexual misconduct from more than a dozen women, which he has denied.
At the time of her exit, Chen Moonves — who shares son Charlie, 14, with Les — made no reference to the allegations against her husband, saying instead that she needed “to spend more time at home with my husband and our young son.”
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“He has always been a kind, decent and moral human being,” she wrote in July 2018. “I fully support my husband and stand behind him and his statement.”
But First, Godmarks the first time Chen Moonves has opened up about her departure fromThe Talk, a choice she felt she didn’t have.
“That was a hard time,” she recalled. “I felt stabbed in the back. I was.”
The audiobook chronicles Chen Moonves’spiritual journey, which has helped her to reconcile her negative feelings around her exit fromThe Talk.
“I don’t know if I could have reconciled if I didn’t have God in my life,” she said.
But First, God: An Audio Memoir of Spiritual Discoveryis available to purchase on Sept. 19.
source: people.com